since there’s no point in writing to you, i guess i’ll just do it here

i was just thinking how tragic it is, that you’re someone i’ve known since i was 14? 15? and we don’t speak

i understand losing all my other friends from high school. they all judged me for the person i became during my years of rampant drug abuse & went on and continued their perfect lives while abandoning me. but you never had the perfect life and neither did i. you had everyone you once know completely shut you out too.

i’m not sure why you’re not speaking to me, but i have a general idea or assumption. based upon our convo back in… i dunno, march? i was hopeful we could maintain some sort of friendship still, but i guess that’s too much for you to bare right now? which, i guess i can understand.

to touch on my assumption as to why you’re not speaking to me - id just like to remind you that you had a good 10+ years to really give it a shot with me. 4.5 or so years if we are just talking about the time i was sober. i can’t imagine you thinking id just wait around forever for you?

i miss you, i still have love for you and i care about you & think of you more often then i probably should. maybe one day we can link up in the future, when the timing is right for both of us. i hope you’re okay.

soon 🤍